REMINISCENCE

i am seriously upset

cried twice within 1/2 hour!
possible?
yes.
tears rolled down suddenly.
and now occasionally
it has been a habit now.
and i am simply crying every single day.

i guess.
he just dunno that
what he is doing
does affect me.
he not online.
when i was to talk.
i just feel.
useless and angry at myself.

everyone is telling me to cheer up.
the old zhixuan isn't around anymore.
it just changed that old zhixuan into one
who understand one feeling more?
it has been 3 days.
and i am really suffering.
why must i ignore you that day?
why am i such a fool?

lyn told me that being sad over him isn't worth.
rp told me that i shouldn't look down. and cheer up
shimin is telling me to cheer up as well.
LOOK!
everyone is telling me to cheer up!
BUT i seriously can't!

那种的伤痛已经让我无法在承受下一场的爱情
我该发誓吗？
发誓说如果我放弃爱情时,我会把我最深爱的长发剪短.
可是,我觉得不可能的事.
因为,除了家人,亲戚,朋友以外我的头发是我最珍惜的东西吧？
爱人真的好辛苦，被爱比较好吧?

他的一举一动对我来说
根本就是一种折磨.
这种折磨，真的然我沉不住气然我无法呼吸.
我要真麽样才能把这种折磨毁掉呢？
我想忘掉你但是千百个理由在此蹦出来
我真的真的第二次体会到爱人的痛.

好想好想告诉你，
但我不能！
好想好想遇见你，
但我不能！
好想好想放弃你，
但我不能！
有太多的好想，
但是答案永远只有：但我不能！

我要快被自己的一厢情愿害死！
整个人都快崩溃快疯了！
有谁想帮帮我？